what happened !!

a week ago , some stupid bitch came and read my blog . altho she hates me super fucking alot. i hv no idea why she would even bother reading about whats goin on in my life , or in my thoughts , but she did and she came across some stuff that she dint quite like and agreed with - things that had to do with her boyfriend, one of my closest frens.
she dint like him being close to me, but he was still close to me , and we hung out about 3,4 times a week .. supper , shopping , movies .. i think she told him before that she dint like him hanging out too much with me but when she flew back to melbourne, he would hang out with me again.

after reading my entrieS, they fought, and then .. i think they ALMOST broke up. then tis is the FUNNIEST THING !!!
MY FRIEND, (note: F R I E N D) he called me afew hours later , and told me that THEIR relationship is on rocky ground now, and he had to do something to ensure that he wont lose her forever , and at least gain back some of her trust . THE BLOODY FUCKING BASTARD TOLD ME THAT HE CAN NO LONGER SEE ME, OR TALK TO ME. In short, he wants me to erase him from my memory , as how he is goin to erase me, from HIS !! WHAT FUCKED UP CRAP IS THAT ??
i was reali dumb the time he called me to tell me tis .
i told him, dun worry . its ok .. n words to comfort him, to make him feel less bad about the whole situation.
WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING? AT THAT MOMENT ?? i should`ve gave him a piece of my mind . i should have told him that it was the most stupid-EST thing i`ve ever heard , and i should have sounded him !!!
he mailed me, saying his sorry and all, but he says he had to do what he did , cos he couldnt lose her !!!
arghhh . im so pissed .. i duno who im pissed at ? her ? him ? or myself ..

i told him beginning of tis year, that i will start caring LESS about the people around me , cos they usually end up kicking me right back at my ass . and he was so against it .

if your reading tis , I WAS RIGHT . I SHOULDNT HAVE CARED SO MUCH ABOUT YOU . WHEN U TOLD ME THAT , IT WAS LIKE YOU STABBED ME AT MY HEART . YOU HURT ME SO MUCH ..

its all over . we hvnt talked for so long , i think he is serious about this .. i lost one of my closest fren . he was not just a fren, i cared for him like a brother .. and tis is what happens ..
i know now that i have to stop caring too much about the people around me .
that's the only way i can protect myself .

* i pray and hope that u dint sacrifice our friendship for SHITS . because your never goin to get it back . we're never goin to be the same .. i hope ur girlfriend starts to treat u better , and not like how ppl treat their dogs .