helo 2006 !!

my first official entry of the year ..


2005 ..
it was a pretty bad year for me .. started wit relationships, friendship, family to studies . everything la ..
there were times when i felt reali lonely, reali sad . there were times when i felt that why am i here ? no purpose .. there times when i wished i`d flew out of my car windscreen when i had my accident .. but i dint, so i guess GOd has a bigger, better reason for me to still be here ?
there are so many things that i wan to say .. ill try


Firstly,
i met YOU.
You were probly the BEST thing that happened in my year .. You were there when i felt that i could never love another person again .. You brought hope, love, joy into my life. You gave me everything i needed, everything i wanted. Waking up every morning to Your sweet, funny smses .. Falling asleep to Your Jay Chou songs, or Your lullabys, or just falling asleep to Your voice were one of those moments where i felt all warm n fuzzy inside. The way You always bought me biscuits and milk, and chips to make sure that i wont be hungry at night. It was perfect. Thank you.
Altho You dint stay long, it was good to be able to feel that way again. You will always be someone special in my heart.
Thanks for coming back, its nice having You around again.


Secondly,
My Family ..
without u, who am i ?
u gave me a second chance to prove myself, and i hope and pray that i dun dissapoint you again.
thnx for alwys supporting me, and alwys being there for me !!
Retard baby bro, we will alwys stand strong together!! Jie Jie loves you ..
no worries yea, 2006 will be a good year for US!!
hint .. UWA and guinea pigs - perfect. hahahahaaa (:


Next,
My GiRlsSsss ..
needless to say, without u guys .. ill be like a lil lost sheep ..
words canot express our relationship .. hahaaa (:
i love u guys so much ..
and im glad i have u guys to lean on after a long, hard day !!


Next,
Jack ..
As much as ur girlfriend hates us hanging together..
I appreciate those times when u were there for me. when i felt that all was lost, when i was down, down, down you offered me ur hand, and pulled me up. You encouraged me, supported me, comforted me. alwys teman - ing me cry, taking me out for suppers.. those were good times. know that even tho we cant see, or talk to each other anymore, know that ill alwys be there for u. hahahhaaaaa ..


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2005 brought alot of tears, alot of bad memories, alot of hurt, family issues, broken friendships, impossible results ..
BUT despite all those, there are times that i wont trade for anything.
moments and memories that will stick wit me throughout my whole life, and i thank those who gave me something to remember.


i supposed tis year was a test to see how tough i can be ..
tis year, i went through so much more than ive ever been through before.
it was a year which made me realise who are my true friends, those that stick wit me through everything.
it made me realise that i should prioritize my life, that there are things which are much more important, and i should put more time n effort into.
ive aso learnt that my life is mine to control. i create my own life, my own path. SO, im planning to make it !! and prove to myself that im not just full of dreams, and empty talk!


hopefully, year 2006 will be a year that i can be proud of myself, accomplish my dreams, make my parents proud of me .. i want to live 2006 to the fullest, wit no regrets, wit those that i love, and care about.
all the experience that ive gained in 2005 will be applied in 2006, mistakes made will NOT be repeated. i think 2005 has made me abit more wiser in making decisions, abit more better in knowing people, reading them .. abit more maturer. hopefully a better person all in all !


to everyone out there, may u have a great year ahead of u ..
HAPPY NEW YEAR !! muaxxxxxxxx ^^