tu laN *

ARGH ..
my parents can reali get to me at times ..
i cant go for our class trip ..
and because of me .. its probably goin to be canceled .

FUCK .
i feel so bad , mainly cos i cause 5 other ppl to cancel the trip too .. and cos i cant go as well !!

dammit .

they are saying that its my fault , cos i cant go . cos i wasted their money .
firstly , they forced me to go there . to do what i did ..
i clearly said that i DON`T want to do that .. then i gave in to the course , and they FORCED me to go there . and i DIDN`T want that either .
then when i was there , i said everyday that i DON`T WANT TO STAY THERE .. but they made meeeeeeeeeeeeeee !! until i couldn`t stand that place anymore ..

now , i`m doin something i choosed .
so how is that MY FAULT ? arghhhh !!!

And thank u kor kor .. for coming back tis hols . for alwys remembering me before u come home .. never forgetting to call to ask if i want anything over there .. for making things abit easier for me .. for promising me something i reali reali like + want .. (: * if i meet ur requirements =P
maybe i hvnt been like the old me .. but i`ll try to absorb our chats , and try to keep them in mind ..
i kno that when we were younger u thought i was just a pest , an irritating girl .. that oni knows how to kor kor tis , kor kor that .. and u din`t like me at all .
im glad u grew up to LOVE me .. cos i edi loved u then (:
muaxxx .. i`ll alwys be ur baby sis . *grins (duno if thats a curse to u anot , tee- hee)


at times like tis , i miss u the most ..
because u would know what to say , and what to do to make things better ..