before + now

i miss my old life, where i used to see the guys every week and then we`d catch up , i miss drinking n then talking nonsense with them, the constant drives around kl at 5 in the morning just to go eat nasi lemak, the visits to the bapok areas and hearing the guys tease them, late nite movies, sitting down looking at the stars and being emo. i duno what has happened to me. i wanted to be a good girl - sit at home, try to make her parents abit happier but its not me. and tonight i took a step back and had a taste of how life felt before.
AND dammit - i miss it.

im at crossroads now. have to pick a road. but i kno each road will b ring me somewhere different, and then i`ll change again.

which road will i take?

p/s : i hope ur ok. i duno if thats the only thing thats been goin thru ur mind, but i doubt it - mastermind in pretending. there are some things that u dun have to lie about, and pretend thats its ok. keep me updated k! muaxxx!!