looking back

looking back at your past is a fun thing to do actually

today , i sat infront of my pc . and started viewing the people that have left their marks in my life . not only in my life , but also in my heart .
those who have made me realise how i`ve been naive , and innocent . and help me grow up and face the world , stronger and more determined .
those who`ve taught me that life isn`t alwys goin to be a bed of roses .
and sometimes it`s goin to stab you in your back .
and sometimes it`s just goin to throw the worst at you when your the least prepared .
and sometimes for reasons that you may not even know . (even after 7 years , i still dont know why)
those who`ve shown me how people can be . as true to you , and also as mean as possible .

back then , every incident like tis used to hurt me so much . and then i would wonder what - why - how .
what caused tis to happen ?
how when everything seemed so ok ?
why me ?

but now ..
i dont do that anymore ..
i dont ask myself why . or how . or what .
i just take it in , and try to remember all the good things that has happened ..
how you`ve touched me , and changed my life ..

and i still remember you .. and the little little things like ...
how u approached me .
how i would come early to school , wait pretend to be busy in class and when you came , we would sit at the stairs and talk talk talk talk until the bell rang
how i would slowly pack up my books after school , watch u at the opposite block and made sure you saw me leaving . then slowly come out of class and then you would run out and walk me all the way out .
how we would talk for hours on ICQ .


yeaa ..
i do miss alot of things .. (: