Be Strong , My Dear .

today`s entry will be in BLACK as i just found out today that one of my closest , oldest friend`s dad passed away today morning . i was still in bed when they called to tell me , and i reali thought i was dreaming cos i remembered him tellin me that his dad`s cpndition was improving plus it had edi been a year . had to ask them to repeat several times before i actuali woke up and realised that i wasnt dreaming .
what`s gona happen to his family now ?
his 4 year old baby sis ? his 12 year old lil bro ? ..
i`ve oni met his dad a couple of times when i went over . suprisingly his dad alwys remembers me . especially when i call . zzz . then he`ll hv that tone , like .. ' oooo , u calling my son . rwarr '


i reali wished i could do more for u than just calling and saying sorry . and tellin u that im here for u . these are things that u edi kno . i want to help make it easier . i want to make u feel better , but i reali duno what i can do for u .
everytime i needed u , u alwys made time for me .
everytime i got bored during the weekends , you would alwys include my in your plans .
or sometimes u would just come over to keep me company .
when i told u that i wana start jogging every few days cos i felt that i was puttin on weight and i dint want to do it alone , u would walk over in the evenings and follow me walk and jog around .
when i needed to hide somewhere to chill after i got my results , i went to u .
when i got together with a boy , i dint tok much to u anymore . but after we broke up , u were there for me .
NOW , when you need strength and support the most . i cant do anything . i feel so useless .


Be strong . and know that ur dad loves you frm the bottom of his heart . he`s in a better place now . dun worry , dun fear . u will see him again . until then , he will be watching you frm heaven above . take care my dear . i love you lots . *hugs !!