to an old friend

i was thinking about u last nite , and i just realised its been a long time since ive actuali talked to u . and honestly , i miss u ..
but .. im getting over everything . if things stay like tis between us , im pretty sure that sometime in the future , we are just going to stop talking . stop seeing each other . and just fade away . im reali hurt that u let a boy get in between us . not only that , ur still holding it against me . even though i never wanted him ever .
until now , u still wonder whether when he is somewhere , am i there with him ??
i knew u since my age was a single digit , and to see everything that we`ve had collapse , its a real waste . i still remember how we alwys sed that even if we grow older , we were gona stick together . friends over boys .. that was what u alwys sed .. but i guess to you , words are just words .
u know how i feel now ? when you are around .. i dun reali want to be there anymore .. thats how bad things are . i duan to laugh n hv fun with you when its all just a lie , cos deep inside .. u feel differently about me . u kno how i feel about pretending .. and that is the thing that u are best at .
i want us to talk about this . i want u to kno that i still love u , and i still care about u .. but if u still want to act like tis ... to think of me like that . then i reali feel that our friendship was not worth it at all ..

think about what i`ve just said .
i love u sis .