i love u alwys (:

had a short speaking thingie for english today .
we had to talk about a personal experience .
i talked about my po poh (:

one of the few greatest regrets in my life was not being there at her death bed with her .
i was just outside .
i cant understand why i wasn`t there for her ? why i dint spend those last minutes with her !!!
sometimes when i tink of her , i cry because i realise that those were the last times i could talk to her , hold her hand , hug her . tell her i love her ..
and now she isn`t here anymore ):
i miss her so much ..
she was alwys with me for as long as i could remember ..
she walked with me in the evenings ..
she bathed my tortoise with a brush . hahaa . she used to brush the tortoise every week , she even scrubed the bottom of its shell . hehee , so cute (:
everytime i came home from school , the first thing i would do is call out loud to my po poh and tell her that im home .. (i continued doing it the first few weeks after she was gone)
she used to stand in front of me when mama was angry at me n wanted to wack me wit the rotan ..

how i wished she was still here ..
how i wished i could still hold her n hug her n tell her that i love her ):
every once in awhile my paernts n i go and visit her grave , everytime i go there .
i try to sum up all the things that has happened to me . and how much i miss her , and wished that she is STILL here with me ..

Po poh , wherever you are right now ..
i hope u kno that altho i never reali showed u that i cared and loved u alot .
the fact is that , i reali do love u
and i alwys miss having u around ..
you`ll alwys have a very very special place in MY tiny little heart

love ur little grand daughter ..
Ying Ying (: