past .

hahaaa ..
he asked me if what i did before for him was stupid anot ??
and whether it was just a waste of time .
honestly .. there were times when i thought what i did was reali stupid ... thinking of you . missing you . loving you . wanting you . i tried to stop feeling for you and i thought i did but what i actuali did was just put you away far far far far from my sight so i won`t have to think of you . won`t have to feel those feelings ...

everything seems so far away now . but ..
yea . i felt that it wasn`t a waste of time .
maybe i did get hurt in the end . but at least i know that i dont have to look back and ask myself 'what if .. '

and .. i believe i`m so much stronger than i was before ...
something you have to wait and see ... idiot jack ass =Ppp * huGss ``