have u ever felt as if the person you are is not the person you reali are .
and that everything , or most of everything you`ve done is basically jst a lie .. or more like something you just do to make others happy ...
sometimes i just wished this whole year never happened .. and everything went well last year , then i won`t be here ... travelling on tis road ..
hurting so many people and then hurting myself at the same time ...

the thing about not being able to sleep at nite is that during these times .. u tend to think alot . and try to understand alot of things which you usually wont .

thank god its december .. 2006 fai fai past ..


i thought i could . but i can`t ....