ContinuEee ..

ok .
i woke up frm my nap earlier , and realised what i FORGOT to blog about ,
no wonder the entry wasnt long .. hahaa ..

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i dun understand why some ppl like to sneak around behind other ppl`s backs .
why they like lying to the ppl who care the most about them , why do they seem to hurt the ppl who care the most about them , why they have to lose something to finally realise its true value.
WHY WHY WHY ??
i hate ppl who dun walk the talk , they advise others , they tell others to do good , to do this , to do that , BUT when they ARE IN THE picture , they do otherwise .
they say they love you , but the fact is , ur just one of those many ppl that pass through their life , and maybe ur not meant to stay , at all .
sometimes , u reali cant trust anyone . even the ppl closest to u will lie to u.

AND why do some ppl lie to themselves ?
trying to convince themselves that there is something , when the true fact is THERE IS NOTHING THERE !!! isit so hard to accept reality, fall down and pick yourself up ?? they lie and lie and lie to themselves, and guess what happens ? they end up CONFUSED , LOST AND HURT .
and then the cycle goes on again ..
- lie to self - confused, hurt , lost - lie to self .....

argh .. tak boleh tahan ppl like tis ..
wake up AND face it like a man / woman .
and then toughen urself up , and get over it .
as hard as it will be , ur life has to go on .

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AND why do ppl two time their other halves ?
come on , if u find someone better than ur current half , then let the poor fella go , and move on with the new person . why keep them both ?
does it seem COOL to u ? just cos u have two drooling over u , rolling over for u ? its NOT cool at all .
CERTAIN ppl will say , hey .. arent u kinda in the same situation ?
well , i might be in a similar situation , but its diferent . cos im not commiting to anyone . and im not promising anyone that im goin to be exclusive with them ..
im meeting new ppl , keeping it cool . and DEFINITELY not getting involved .
i cant help it if OTHER ppl`s bf wants to flirt around with me ..
i dint ask him to do so . neither can i stop him . all i can do is remind him that he`s in a relationship and tell him that im not intending to get exclusive with him either ..
argh .. tak boleh tahan ppl like tis .. ALSO

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i used to ENJOY hurting myself.
now i realise that , ppl arent goin to protect me . i have to be strong , and protect myself .
i used to think that i nid u .. but GUESS WHAT ? im not that person anymore . im abit tougher than what i used to be ..
i have ThePwenguin to thnk for tis , he walked out of my life and then i learnt that after the 3rd time someone walks away , something has to change .
ME .
i still tend to rely abit on others , but i stop when i realise that im rely -ing abit too much .
its better this way .