haihs

i almost died today .
i was so close , but .. i couldnt . i wrote letters to all the ppl close to my heart ..
how did i get to this point ? i reali scared myself too . i was wondering how life would be if i reali gone all the way . it takes alot of guts , which .. i reali dun hv . i can go all the way , but stop at the most important point . haihh .. i feel so dissapointed in myself ..
at the end , i couldnt . i got scared ..

then i took the phone and called MyBlankie . ended up crying for 1 and a half minutes ..
whenever i talk to him , he manages to make me feel that i can go through it .
thats why he`s called MyBlanket . cos he alwys manages to make me smile again even tho ive been crying for hours ..
today he sed , look at u girl , ur in pieces ..
he told me to fuck all the ppl that has hurt me , and forget them cos they're not worth it ..

haihh ..
Blankie .. fast fast fly back from Perth , i nid u to come jaga me 24 hours .. hahaa

shuf , thx for all ur encouragement .. muaxxx (: