how to stop a broken heart from being hurt AGAIN .

i`ve had enough .
enough of all the crap .
enough of all the confusion you bring into my life .
enough of feeling up and down just because of one word from you .
ENOUGH !!!
there`s no USE at all that i still CARE about you cos i just realised that you like hanging on to me . im like the girl you care but when your feeling bad or angry , im ur punching bag . i dont want much from you . i never asked for anything cos in my heart , what we HAD and HAVE is different . but now i realised that it reali never mattered to you . i was stubborn , i dint want to believe . but now , im just so fed up wit YOU . wit HIM . wit everyone .
honestly i reali feel as if there`s no one i can reali put 100% trust in ( no offence to the ppl i care about ) ..


friends, good friends, best friends ..
i love my girls , but they are still people . and there are times when they are going to bitch about you . there are gona be times when they are not goin to like you . there are times when they are going to look at you as the enemy .
i edi lost one good friend . maybe you dont realise it , but let me tell you once and for all ..
u and me . since a year ago , we`ve drifted apart . and as much as you and i try to act , nothing is different now . and i can honestly say that i dont feel that anything will change in the future . i know what has been and is going on behind my back . do i look like i AM that stupid and naive to you . what i want you to do is tell me straight to my face , not bitch about me . not act like everything is ok , because i HATE HATE FUCKING HATE people who act like they everything is ok but when the true fact is IT IS NOT OK . face the music girl , WE HAVE EDI LOST IT . CAN`T YOU FEEL IT ???


parents .
i hv nothing much i can say about them cos i guess when life turns bad , they are the only people who will take you in . and care for u .


boyfriends and girlfriends .
ARE THE LAST PEOPLE YOU SHOULD TRUST
altho you give them your heart and your whole soul , when that spark is gone . its GONE . and it`ll NEVER GO BACK TO HOW IT WAS BEFORE .


LOVE .
is something that will never move me again .
i WILL NEVER see things the same way again .
and because of this , i am goin to say NO to you . not because i dont care about u , trust me . i do . but things have changed . and LOVE has killed me . once , twice .. im not goin to let it come near me and have a chance to HURT ME AGAIN .


for anyone who disagrees ,
FUCK YOU .
cos tis is my blog . and this is how i feel .
TRUST , HOPE , LOVE .
pls leave me alone . ur not welcomed in my life anymore
to the remaining people who still have a place in my heart , i want you to know that i love u from the bottom of my heart . and i appreciate everything that you have done for me ! hugs . muaxx !!