I Want .

I want ...


To be strong .
You to be proud of me .
To be independent .
To do well in Uni , no more failing . no more mere passes . but distinctions .
To make my parents proud of me .
To go away !
To learn to balance my studies and my fun .
To leave everything behind .
To stop thinking .


I want to achieve all this . I want to make something out of myself . I duan to bum around and waste time , I want to be productive . I want to be able to look back in future and tell myself that i`ve accomplish something . I want to be someone useful , someone important . Results are coming out next week , i`m sure that i can get into uni . Hopefully VU .. cos then i can go in straight away , and start lessons instead of bumming around until May . I`ve made many mistakes since form 5 until now , and i just realised that it`s too late to go back and re-do everything , so the only thing i can do now is work hard , to compensate for everything that i`ve lost . Time , oppurtunity , my past .


I want to learn to be strong . To stand on my own without relying on anyone . I duan to look all strong and steady infront of everyone but when the curtain closes , all i can do is sit and cry . I know YOU wanted me to be strong , and that`s what i`m goin to be . As tough and hard as it`s goin to be , i`m still goin to be brave and go all the way ! i hope KNOW i can do it .


i`ve joined a gym *grins* .
im actuali reali happy i did , cos i enjoy goin there because for the next few hours all i do is concentrate on myself , hv fun working out . and forget about everything outside . i commited myself to a ONE YEAR plan and terminating it would mean i have to pay rm600 !!! hahaa . tis is to prevent me from being lazy !
NOW , what i`m lacking is new shoes , and gym clothes . and i`ll be a happy girl (: