hi there .. 2007

another year again. doesnt time fly when your having a blast
a new year ..
a new beginning perhaps ? ..
a new life ? ..
a new ME ? ..
i don`t know yet .

*********2005

last year ....
i told some people that 2006 would be a better year , for all of us and it seems like it has been cos we`ve all gone our separate ways chasing our individual dreams ..
and now , it seems like we`re one step closer to all of our dreams ...

i guess 2006 has been pretty good for me ..
a new start , a new place , new people , new friends ...
people that will truly love you for the person YOU ARE .
regardless of colour , age , race , looks .. but the person you are inside . and i`ve come to know some really special people that i`ll always keep and treasure in my heart eventhough we might not keep in contact with each other in the future ...
i`ve also met people who are hypocrites ... two - faced .
people who seem like they really care for you . but behind that angelic character , u`d be suprised that there can actually be so much hatred ..

it was also the year where i told myself that i would not get involved in anything that would hurt me as much as it did when you left . and until now , i feel that it was one of the smartest things i did.

2006 was filled with quite alot of friendships gone wrong .
most which i`ve managed to fix .
some which i havn`t completely kau tim- ED. hehee
i also tried to become someone else . and in the end, all i felt was pretty much alot of emptiness
it wont be fair if i sed that i was aN angel cos there were times when i broke afew hearts along the way , hurt afew people , used people for my own benefits . been selfish . and mean .
i dont want to defend what i did either cos there`s no reason for me to explain my actions to anyone .
there were also afew things that i`ve regretted doing . afew things that now if u asked me again , i wouldnt do . but it has already been done . and i can`t take it back ... so now all i can do is be responsible for my own actions .


all in all .. i feel 2006 was a better year for me
less hurt . less crying . less memories ....
a year where i can look back and say that , ' yea . it was alright . it wasnt that good , but life is supposed to be like that . the usual normal consistency of ups and downs '

i feel so much older than usual . its as tho i`m reali beginning to be a different persoN ? or maybe its jt the whole growing up , going away soon feeling . that feeling where u feel that ur at a different phase in your life where u have to start feeling and thinking . and start doing the things which are more responsible and start thinking about the consequences of your actions .

2007 ?
i dont have any new year`s resolution cos i dont believe in them
but i do hope that this year will bring many many more happy memories . and times with the people i love and care about . and hopefully an average of 70% . hahaaa (:
and ... i want to be a person that i can look back to next year aNd be proud of . proud of my actions , my decisions .
i also want to do my little bit for the world - maybe do a little volunteering . or maybe helping out . do something for the animals that i reali like sharks , tigers .. start being abit more independant and be a little bit more matured (:

let`s see if that works out for me .
i hope everyone`s resolutions work out for them too ! happy 2007 again !